Love has made me insecure, matured, vulnerable, think, self-reliant, independent, curious and scared.
So right when my eyes found you a little while ago, i would be lying if i'd said my heart wasn't thumping hard. You just made my stomach twist pleasantly. My mind was already racing ahead, gathering facts and retrieving memories and putting the puzzle together into what i suddenly realized was the bitter truth. That i was forgotten. Somehow.
At times like now, i really think life needed a fastforward button because there were days you just didn't want to have to relive through, not again, but they kept coming around and you were powerless to stop time or speed it up, at the very least or do anything to keep from having to face it. Well i hope my feelings for you would evaporate like a morning mist so the next time we happened to 'casually' bumped into each other, i won't feel a twinge of disappointment or best of all, neutral.
On a different note, last wednesday was Racial Harmony. I wore Chinese (I borrowed from Diana actually) and teachers/schoolmates complimented me on how i looked long but Ms. Y thought the slits were too high and in malay class everyone had their costume on well, excluding Maxxy. He kinda ruined the whole ambience. Its the usual routine we did when celebrating such events. Took (preetttaaayy) peektures after school with my girls and they have yet to upload them. I predict it is going to be in a few weeks time?
xoxo