HeartBreak Warfare.

I know i had promised to isolate myself from the internet but then again, promises are meant to be broken. Anyway, today marks the third day in September. Suddenly feels like the rest of the school year is coming on so fast. Prelims will soon be gone, and few weeks of lessons/school then its official. The ever-more nerve wrecking O levels. Thinking about it already is frightening. But never mind on that part, there's no use fretting over it because its just another stepping stone in life. Everyone has to go through it anyway.


The only thing that has been on my mind is this:


What's going to happen to my girls  (plus boys) and i after we graduate? Are we going to stay together and still be closer than ever and things will remain just the way it is few years down the road or are we going to be busy with our so called 'new' life and leave everything behind to make room for new things? I swear to anything, those thoughts made me tear up a little. Okayy i realized this post is going to be sappy so further reading is optional.


For being who i am, i am not sure how im going to cope with not having them as time passes. I am so used to our kind of atmosphere, the same faces i loved that i see everyday and i couldn't have possibly picked a better crowd. I loved them and gonna make the best out of every moment. They are there everytime and their joyous spirits never fails to bring my mood up a notch. From the time we spent idling, having  heart-2-heart talks, or even conversations that are flat out boring, exchanging secrets knowing by heart that you wouldnt't judge me, to the times we spent laughing our heads off about the stupid/nonsensical things we did together, I am absolutely, positively sure that when we are already on our separate ways pursuing many different things, those were the exact moments i would want to relive again and again. Because i am positive that 10 years down the road, my girls and boys will stay on my mind and in my prayers. I loved you all very very very much.


For as long as we have been together, i have a hard time trying to recall the moments that we fought and as much as i tried to remember, i just can't. Maybe because we are way mature than some people  that we know the best way to deal with things instead of sulking and waiting on others to apologize because you think the world revolves around only you-and that's one of the many things i loved about you guys. Oh, scratch that. Girls.


I know it may be a little too early to be talking about all this things but it won't hurt either to be thinking about it now and thats just the way i am- i tend to overthink everything.


I reckon its my way of getting myself prepared mentally and..emotionally for when that moment comes, i think it will be way heartbreaking than typing it out.


Moving on, we had History paper earlier today and i swear section A was horrible, extremely horrible to the point that it actually, kinda, made me lose hope. I mean, seriously, i don't understand a word about it. And, there goes my aim to get a disticntion.

For the obvious, not everyone is in the picture.