Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.

Today was okay. Truthfully, i was not in the best of mood these couple of days.  I have been waking up with the same intense grudge sitting at the corner of my chest but it just sort of faded away as the day lulled by slowly. It was an overwhelming sense of outrage i felt towards you. You irked me. I was totally disgusted by you. You exasperated me so much to the point that i can't look at you the same anymore. You are so full of yourself and let it get too much in your head that you forgot i have feelings too. I have my own mind, i decide what i feel. Thats the problem now. It lies within you and you never realised it 'cause you are constantly thinking of ways to impress me as if words were meant to stand in for all apologies. Until it became oblivious to you. The feeling was further compounded when we got near. Your smell clings to my nostrils and i hated how it stayed there until yesterday. You have always thought that i am an easy person and within the realm of possibility, you always have the perception that i will open my heart for you again. We both know that i am  insecure and haunted for a long time now but i never asked for you to work hard to fill the hollow and replace the horror with love and you. But thats just you. You loved to assume. And i hate you for that. If you ever thought that there will be us in the future, im sorry to say that it will be next to impossible. I wished that was the last time i ever see you again. I wished for the whole thing to evaporate like morning mist. I wished for this nightmare to end. And all that happened shall remain undisclosed to all, known to some.

And im sorry this whole post is shit. I hate it too when i am too caught up in my train of thoughts.