its because your brain tells you, "you have suffered enough, its time to take a break from everything." make much sense to you?
well anyway, here's a real-life story for you.
when i was 6 years old, i was almost knocked down by a car because i wanted to retrieve something i cannot recall that fell on the road while i was crossing. i knew there was an oncoming car but i was so young i did not think. fortunately, my dad was fast enough to pull me back. i survived. i did not die.
when i was 9 years old, i almost died because of the carelessness on my part. i was on a holiday trip with my family and was happily getting myself wet in the waterfall. i did not realized how deep the water was so i went in and was eventually drowned. luck was not on my side because the people who saw me struggling did not even lift a finger to help. on my own, i survived. i did not die.
when i was 15 years old, i went to the doctor and was referred to a specialist because there was a growth inside of me. i had to go through an operation that lasted for 4 hours and my mom was the only one waiting, apparently. i sensed there was 3 doctors and many other nurses working on me. i was put to sleep until it was over. i survived. i did not die.
when i was 16 years old, i was walking home from school and was almost knocked down by a Mercedes. i blamed myself. my mind was somewhere else and the screeching sound brought me back to reality. the driver was kind enough to not cursed me. thank god, i survived. i did not die.
so if i can survived all of these on my own, what makes you think im not a strong person?