Looking back, it was all so easy. I seemed to not be affected by anything of my past but actual truth, you know nothing about what happened, you don't feel what i felt so you have got no right to judge me whatsoever. On another note, i simply to whatever extend would never fathom why the fcuk people from my past won't stay in my damn past?
I honestly am doing fine without you, ass. If you're looking for forgiveness (which apparently is the whole question here) then i am not sorry to say, its not to be found here. You can say you're sorry a million and one times but i would still don't care. After what you did to me, you clearly know how vulnerable i have always been so you served that as an advantage to yourself and prove to me how selfish a jerk are you. Wow dude, thanks alot. I have found someone new now and i am happy with him. I don't need you in my life anymore so fucking stop sending me long unimportant messages i won't even be bothered to reply or read even. Save me another heartbreak and just leave. Don't come back to me okay. Just don't. We're not meant to be together, not even on the friends basis. I have had enough of your bullshits from the past.
It frustrates the hell out of me to be frank. With every words he wrote to me, there lays the possibility of me falling all over for him again. Thats how weak i am and he knows that and yet, he's doing all these intentionally. I have been suppressing my emotions for god-knows-how-long and finally felt relieved to be able to spill everything out to fir :') Even though i have disrupted his sleeping time, he still listens to me. Thats the best part of him actually. I mean, one of the best. I am aware of how annoying i can be but he doesn't mind. So i told him i love him and was in utterly disbelief haha that was classic. And yes of course, he said he loves me too.
Goodnight!