58 if i die, read my tumblr & you'll learn everything

its because your brain tells you, "you have suffered enough, its time to take a break from everything."  make much sense to you? 

well anyway, here's a real-life story for you. 

when i was 6 years old, i was almost knocked down by a car because i wanted to retrieve something i cannot recall that fell on the road while i was crossing. i knew there was an oncoming car but i was so young i did not think. fortunately, my dad was fast enough to pull me back. i survived. i did not die.

when i was 9 years old, i almost died because of the carelessness on my part. i was on a holiday trip with my family and was happily getting myself wet in the waterfall. i did not realized how deep the water was so i went in and was eventually drowned. luck was not on my side because the people who saw me struggling did not even lift a finger to help. on my own,  i survived. i did not die.

when i was 15 years old, i went to the doctor and was referred to a specialist because there was a growth inside of me. i had to go through an operation that lasted for 4 hours and my mom was the only one waiting, apparently. i sensed there was 3 doctors and many other nurses working on me. i was put to sleep until it was over. i survived. i did not die.

when i was 16 years old, i was walking home from school and was almost knocked down by a Mercedes. i blamed myself. my mind was somewhere else and the screeching sound brought me back to reality. the driver was kind enough to not cursed me. thank god, i survived. i did not die. 

so if i can survived all of these on my own, what makes you think im not a strong person? 

57 i have a weak heart when it comes to you

i can be tough

i can be strong

but with you, its not like that at all

there's a girl, who gives a shit

behind this wall

you just walk through it

and i remember all those crazy things you said

you left them running through my head

nah......................this song is meant for you. i play it on repeat before i went to bed everynight, because thats when i thought of you the most. 

56 no tittle

hehe its so cute but somehow akin to alien, dont you all think so too?

things i intended to/must  do:

• go shoe shopping with the mom<3<3
• complete field practicum session 1 and typed it out nicely, using proper english, on Microsoft Word
• remember to practice again what made me frustrated last friday in Ms Joyce's class
• keep my sources of distractions away from me for as long as i can (and hopefully remained sane)
• delete facebook blog and whatnot that happens to be my sources of distractions (by delete i meant deactivate)
• i've been thrown to do mountains of assignments so maybe start on my "5 ideas of transitions for young children"/"physical education for the young to reduce childhood obesity"/field practicum sessions 1-3 compiled together in a file/print out cover pages for all assignments 
• read childhood development textbook
• sign up for famine camp and pay 55bucks for it
• visit my workplace to see amy aung and dansen john 
• give my biggest 20sec hug to both amy and dansen!!!!
• sort out my feelings

things i have done so far:

• went shoe shopping after school and bought shoes and shoes and more shoes and food and other things! xx
• deactivated facebook but i cant do it for long....i guess. 
• climbed the stairs and hills at school without panting 
• met and hugged amy darling and (dansen.............only knows how to cheat my feelings everytime but its ok i forgive you<3)
• pigged out
• tumblr
• cried in bed

im such wreck. so unproductive, i should kill myself for that. i wanna skip school on monday but i cant and someone just had to remind me about that ha ha, its ok i forgive you.

on another note, have you all catched "UP" the movie? if you're saying yes, well dont this kid above looked damn adorable? i wish i know where he lived so i could actually go up to him and hug him and never let go. and if you have not then.....go and die. ok, im just kidding. 

xx.

55 sleeping is nice

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moving on, last night met up with my mok i luvv her for listening me rambling on everything and nothing all at once. felt much better to know that there's someone who will always be there for me no matter how many shits i have. besides, its a healthy habit to talk your problems out. well, i dont really have a problem but........................yeah . 

"Loving you is confusing me as i have never loved someone like how i love you."

idk which one to choose from so that explains why i uploaded both heh :B
to see more, do not hesitate to visit, beautifulpictures_1234.mok.com.