I deliberately pick this photo out of all because well, you hardly take a proper picture of yourself. No? Okay it doesn't matter. I know its been a long time since I last went on hiatus, actually its not that long, only 2 weeks or so. Okay, don't get sidetracked. The sole reason of doing this post at 3:33AM is to wish him all the best for tomorrow's result. He's a smartypants so he'll do well. I believed in him and the number of times I have prayed, I had promised to include him in my prayers and I did so God, please let him do well. Please give him what he deserved. Please answer my prayers. 


And give him the strength. Don't worry bby, you'll do just fine<33


Only God knows how much I am missing you right now. In my heart, I can feel you because its just real. You are lovely. Very lovely.

61 how can i be this weak

Looking back, it was all so easy. I seemed to not be affected  by anything of my past but actual truth, you know nothing about what happened, you don't feel what i felt so you have got no right to judge me whatsoever. On another note, i simply to whatever extend would never fathom why the fcuk people from my past won't stay in my damn past?


I honestly am doing fine without you, ass. If you're looking for forgiveness (which apparently is the whole question here) then i am not sorry to say, its not to be found here. You can say you're sorry a million and one times but i would still don't care. After what you did to me, you clearly know how vulnerable i have always been so you served that as an advantage to yourself and prove to me how selfish a jerk are you. Wow dude, thanks alot. I have found someone new now and i am happy with him. I don't need you in my life anymore so fucking stop sending me long unimportant messages i won't even be bothered to reply or read even. Save me another heartbreak and just leave. Don't come back to me okay. Just don't. We're not meant to be together, not even on the friends basis. I have had enough of your bullshits from the past.


It frustrates the hell out of me to be frank. With every words he wrote to me, there lays the possibility of me falling all over for him again. Thats how weak i am and he knows that and yet, he's doing all these intentionally. I have been suppressing my emotions for god-knows-how-long and finally felt relieved to be able to spill everything out to fir :') Even though i have disrupted his sleeping time, he still listens to me. Thats the best part of him actually. I mean, one of the best. I am aware of how annoying i can be but he doesn't mind. So i told him i love him and was in utterly disbelief haha that was classic. And yes of course, he said he loves me too.


Goodnight!

hi there, i just realized that after such a long hiatus (technically, not that long heheh) my statistics is still ongoing, people visits my blog. i feel good. i mean, i feel appreciated for at least there's someone out there who cares about whats going on with my life. i feel they agree with me, for some reason. oh well, you know who you are, thank you bb!!


sidenote, my friend zuzu (happens to share the same nick as my cuzzy) helped me create a twitter account when I SWEAR I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER ASKING HER TO DO AS SUCH. she has no twitter herself, lamegurl_1234. well anyway, come poeple, whoever you are follow me. i dont want to be talking alone on twitter HAHAHA


here's the link baby, CLICK HERE :>

60 uneasy hearts

I came across this on tumblr. For some reason, i really am so glad i stumbled upon it because it made me reflect back on my shitty attitude towards you sometimes. I know my actions confused you sometimes and being me, i never would admit if i am mad or upset at you. Truth be told, reason i never want to be upfront about my feelings is because i don't wish to make myself seem petty. I am hyper-sensitive freak who wants nothing but to feel accepted by you. I won't lie that sometimes you pissed the hell outta me I just want to push you away but you made me realized I was being petty and I don't want to wallow in self-pity so much. I am not perfect but i am trying to be for you<3