Hi there. I have decided to create a new account because..i just feel like it. Haha.
Well anyway, I too have decided to not create a new tagboard or used the previous because I just dont want to.
Moving on, in a week time we'll be going back to school. Part of me miss school (because i didnt meet up with my girls so i kind of miss them and the other friends :< ) but part of me didnt want to go back because well, isnt it obvious enough? I have yet to start on my holiday homework and i know this may sound crazy but i just feel like doing it on the weekend. But of course, i doubt i will complete it.
I tried studying during my free time so I dig out my physics textbook and I try in earnest to study. But i find myself doodling-of stars falling to earth and kill us all, aliens invading the earth, little barbie girls with big heads and i wrote your name with a heart shaped circled around it and then i erased it away. It doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure out that my subconscious is speaking out. I get distracted (even by the smallest thing) when studying. When i hear the birds squawking i got distracted and starts to think of the things i should have done/said when wewerestillonspeakingterms. My brain makes weird connections like that. Listing things in my head that are concrete somehow makes me feel calm and safer.
I think im the strangest creature i ever know. Sometimes i give myself the creep. Im like the ticking bomb. Tick, Tock, Tick. Can you hear me? Im about to explode right now. Only waiting for the perfect time. Im lost in my own daydream and i cant find myself because of you. Everything that has happened is all because of you. I haven't sunk so low that i need to pep myself up with silly words. Its crazy that i can hear myself think especially during the day but its amusing too, to hear those words i cant say. Right now, im floating in the sky and you cant touch me.
You cant hurt me anymore.