Back to square one

A good friend of mine once told me how he was deeply in love with a girl, only to have his heart broken. He told me how hurt he was and the pain he felt inside was excruciating enough to the point that his duct tears burst. And i don't understand why some people thinks just because someone is a boy, he can't cry. I mean boy or not, he has feelings too and only real men won't be afraid to cry his eyes out especially when there's a girl around. They're not being sissy, they're being cute and completely honest with his feelings and there is nothing wrong with being honest with oneself. Okay, thats a whole different story already. Let's not get sidetracked. Back to my story. So i was there to hear his side of story and to be honest, im not exactly fond of hearing sad life stories but his was so compelling and besides friends help each other, don't they? I became his emotional prop for that period of time. He told me how heartbreaking it was, how he gave that girl all things that would become the envy of other girls. Frankly, i have never had my heart broken, well technically speaking, sure there's at least a boy who had made me down on all hopes but my heart broken? I don't know what that means, how that feels like, how upsetting. I don't know how cruel love can be and for most times i have heard people bellowing about how broken their heart is, the unbearable pain that engulfed them, i never knew why. I mean if you're only 14/15, what do you know about love?


Does your definition of love meant going into relationships with someone you barely know? Or you call it love when you have been crushing on a guy for only a few weeks? You know, its not as simple as that. I mean come on, there are millions of other guys you have not met that you will in years to come. You can't be 100% certain about your current crush is 'the one', for all you know that person might just turned out to be another one before you truly met the one. Im just saying, you never know how life can be. 4teen is still so young and people will come and go as and when they like. Soon you will stop chasing after people because you think life has taught you enough but back to reality like HELLO! When you become young adults, then you will know how love is hard and life is strange.


I sounded so defensive and it was not supposed to come out like that. But well, thats me...being me. On a higher note, in a matter of a few hours it will officially be 2011, baby!! Gosh im excited like shitsxzszsxzsxz!!! I believed how people sometimes said a new year will be a better year. I hope so. I mean i know so! I need to make some new year resolutions pretty sooon. Or maybe not. I never sticked to them faithfully anyway so why bother?  And hey, to some people out there get a positive outlook in life. Don't surround yourself with negative energy all the time.

Every girl should have her own Bruno Mars. His lyrics are exactly what a girl would love to hear and what boys should know.