Where is the good in goodbye?

The heart is such a bizzare thing, and so are our emotions. Lately i have been feeling a lot of things which up till now i have not fully comprehend what this turmoil inside me is supposed to be. Is it sadness? I don't reckon that because i have been spending my time with my loved ones and as far as i know i am content with my already blessed life. Is it happiness then? Then why do i still at times fight the urge to cry even when its nothing at all. When everything seems to fall in place, i tend to get lost in my thought process and somehow think otherwise. Its the same feeling that has been recurring time after time and its tiring to manage myself alone. Hence at times like this i wish i had someone who would not just waltz in and out of my life.  (I miss you and the way when your eyes found me i could hardly breathe, there is such intensity i felt everytime you looked at me. I miss that and I regret we didn't get to say goodbye properly.)

Okay, enough of that. So moving forward, i am back now and am missing everything. Being me, how i sometimes stereotyped, i can't believed i am actually missing my trip, the country to be specific and im so glad this time, my family decided its not going to be a holiday in KL/Genting/Cameron/Malacca/Batam/wherever i have been to or otherwise it would neutral. In any case, there were a lot of cute boys over there and it was nice, not too hot, the locals were nice and believed it or not the city has more hotels than houses. For the days i was there, i hardly see any locals. There were more tourists and shopping malls had NO soul inside (with the exception of shop owners of course). Yes, you read it right. I'll show you what i meant when i said there's no soul. THERE IS REALLY NOBODY AROUND THE MALL EVEN WHEN ALL THE SHOPS WERE OPEN! I went to a lot of places with the locals trying to converse with us using their language. I swear i can never understand what 'Maka Sua' is. I feel so lazy trying to upload many pictures so i will pick random photos for some days i was there.

On another note, after i came back i don't feel like texting anybody. I don't like texting anymore and sometimes i never reply to people's texts or if i do, it will be after an hour or so and why do i keep getting msgs from people i don't know and calls from them that i never picked up or replied to. HaHa, too bad for them.